I'll be the first to say I'm shit at relationships. I may be able to get a girlfriend, but I'm not good enough to keep them for long. I have trouble committing to relationships. I have a fear of having to be there for someone. I've always enjoyed my freedom, that's the main reason I can't stay committed. I know it's wrong but it's in my nature to compliment people, which usually ends in me flirting. This has made me lose my latest girlfriend.
I know I can be a good girlfriend, I know how I should be. I just tend to mess it up. I have a hard time expressing feeling, when I do let anyone in I end up shutting them out right after. I become distant. The I move on to the next one. I just don't know anymore. I want love, I want to know that I am loved. I just don't know how. is it normal to feel like this? I feel that I have something wrong with me.