it's been a while since I've posted on this site, so let's see how this goes.
I'm graduating from high school on Saturday, and for the last senior project we did ' Carpe Diem '. I had to do things that got me out of my comfort zone.
However in all this I saw something, it scared me to be honest with all of you. I figured out I was angry. Angry at a childhood wasted because I was tormented. Angry at myself for building up walls people will never penetrate. Angry that I let people control who I am.
To this day I can see the faces of the people who laughed at me because I would rather read a book than play hide and seek. They belittled me because I wore my brothers hand-me-downs. What fault did I have? I was poor, homeless most of the time. who were they to judge me?
As I did the reflection for my project I realized the sad truth. I had spent so many years avoiding people in fear of getting hurt, that I missed out on friendships.
Now that I'm leaving into the real world I hope my understanding of people has grown. Sometimes things from the past hold you back, but once you let go, that metaphoric anchor will sink to the bottom while you rise to the surface.
I wrote myself a sticky note, on it, it said " I will not let people determine how I feel. " and for that reason I'm letting go.